Moving out in a week...

Don't quite know what else to say about it.

Hope the move goes smoothly I guess.

Moving out...

The home I've lived in for 30 years is going to be sold and my family will be moving out.

I know I've been wanting to move out for a while, but not like this. I think it's the thought of someone else making a home of my home (for about my whole life) that's giving me issues.

This just serves to underline my belief that nothing's permanent in Singapore; every 3 minutes, something changes... that piece of grassland behind your house, now it's a condominium. That old building you see everyday when you cross the street, is now an empty lot. That old mall you used to visit every so often after school, it's now a 'newer, bigger and with more shops'.

I don't mind things changing, but I wish there were time for things to settle down before the next upheaval.

One more strike against this place...

The world is changing...

..and I don't know if I can keep up.

Maybe it's just the ebb and flow of time, things happen faster for a spell and then slow down again later.

Maybe the world wants some things to happen and decided it can't wait any longer for humanity to take its time.

Maybe the crazies are right and the end is nigh.

Though what kind of end and to what, I doubt they know.

I kinda took the whole year of 2010 off (not exactly voluntarily). Guess it's time to get back on my feet.

I don't know if this just another false start. I hope not.

I've never been the greatest fan of changes.

And I believe that not all change is good change.

I just hope that the changes I make will be good ones.

And will see me through to the years forthcoming.

In camp training tomorrow... stupid...

Can't get out of it this time. Have to cut my hair soon. I hate this waste of time.

Bye Grandpa...

My grandfather, Augustine Swee Soon Hock, passed away about half an hour ago.

Goodbye grandpa, rest in peace.

A friendship ended...

Wish it things didn't turn out this way. Wished so many things had gone differently. In the end I couldn't let go and everything's gone now.

Not quite resolutions for the coming New Year

Due to recent events (that is, over the past two months), I really want to change my life. For a number of reasons. Among them;

I really like the US and Canada. I want to live there - either one of those countries. I really want to find a job and settle down in one of the aforementioned countries.

I really hate (well, as much as I can hate, I don't seem to do hate really well) Singapore. Well, what I hate are some of the social conditions and pressures I've had while growing up. I hate the education priorities and conditions I've had to deal with while growing up. I hate the Stupid Armed Forces.

On that note, I do love my family and friends in Singapore. I can't ask for better. They (and the awesome AFA conventions) will be what I'll miss when I do emigrate.

There're more, but I'll keep this short.

I'm gonna try keeping myself busy as much as I can for as long as I can. I'm kinda full of nervous/anxious energy. I want to do things, lots of things. Drawing, writing, building, inventing. I hope I can build a habit out of it.

In short, I want to change the world.